Please, Help Me with This Horsecrap

Hi, my name is Katie and I have a problem.

It’s an eating and laziness problem. Here’s the thing: I love to eat a lot of food and have little to no perseverance.  I also have a condition called PCOS.  I honestly don’t know if that contributes to my weight gain or my weight contributes to it.  Either way, I’m not doing everything I can to combat it.  Also, I am fairly certain that I’m teetering on the edge of this causing other serious health problems.  Before, I was just contending with it being inconvenient to go clothes shopping.  Now, more physical activities are getting difficult and I’m beginning to realize that I’m not filled with boundless abilities like I was as a teenager.  So this all needs to change, that much is obvious. How, though?  Please don’t start in with the, “eat right and work out.”  That much is also obvious.  The question is how do I go from hella overweight to healthy specifically? What works and what doesn’t work?

Here are the things I know that don’t work:

  1. Assuming I’m going to get enough physical activity during my current average day.
  2. Eating whatever I feel like, consequences be damned.
  3. Not talking to people about my goals.
  4. Not keeping track of how I’m feeling.
  5. Not reaching out to people who have been in my shoes and got out of this lifestyle.

Since I know these things don’t work, I can’t keep doing them.  I think, to begin, I should try doing the opposite.

  1. Start pushing myself to get in more activity.  I weigh a fricken boatload.  I don’t really feel comfortable sharing the exact number right now, but trust me when I say it is higher than any human should weigh.  This leads me to believe that jumping into an intense work out regimen would probs be kind of bad for me.  I have a FitBit Flex that I wear almost all the time.  Spoiler alert: I’m going to be wearing it all the time from now on.  I’ve been using it for almost a year and I honestly really like it.  It keeps pretty accurate measure of how many steps I take and how well I sleep.  The starting step goal on it is 10,000.  I’ve hit or exceeded that number exactly 3 times. My goal is to hit 10k steps a day for the next 3 months.  If you use FitBit in any capacity, feel free to add me! A requirement for me to do my job is to be sitting pretty much the whole day and the competition is a great motivator.

    Using FitBit to get a hold of my lifestyle.
    Using FitBit to get a hold of my lifestyle.
  2. Oh, food, you fickle bitch.  I love eating and trying new food and I’m never going to be one of those “clean eating” people.  It just isn’t realistic for me.  First off, this is America.  Also, I live in the Midwest.  Third, my neighborhood is off of a stretch of road called Restaurant Row. Great food literally surrounds me in large quantities and I’m not interested in completely letting that go.  That being said, keeping on with what I’m doing would just be damn stupid.  I have a few strategies that I am going to start implementing to try to curb the ridiculous food habits I have. Most importantly, way way way less eating out. Which brings me to my next point, because I never go out alone.Setting weight loss goals and being realistic about achieving them.
  3. I need to draft a team.   You think I’m the only person in my house who needs to reconsider their lifestyle? No, honey. I need to tell the people around me about the changes that are happening and why they are happening.  We all need to be a part of prepping, cooking, and shopping for food.  We all need to let me browse through Target/Ikea/The Mall as long as I want so I can get my steps in. Gone are the days of instant gratification.  I need them to be there for me when I really want some super delicious deep dish pizza.Eating right realistically.  Can I do it?
  4. Maybe instead of eating my feelings about eating my feelings, I could just blog about it.  Like, “Oh man, I couldn’t find a dress to wear and I’m really upset,” instead of eating a doughnut.  This cyclical shit is aggravating.  I feel a little better just for having written that here. I feel a lot better by having written everything above this sentence.  Putting it out there in the world and working out my thoughts here is pretty therapeutic.  I know the internet is judgy, but let’s just be better here, ok?Setting realistic goals and achieving them.
  5. As much as people love to say how fat America is, the truth is that there are a ton of people out there dedicated to fitness and health.  Many of those people have been where I am now and have turned their health around.  I need those people leaving me tips and being my sherpas through what will hopefully be the most challenging part of my life.  Because on those days when you’ve worked so hard for something and you feel like the results aren’t there (and I’ve experienced this) you need the person who worked through it to tell you that not all is in vain.

In my quest to pursue these goals, I’ll be trying a bunch of different stuff and I’ll be posting it all here (and probably some stuff here and some real time stuff here). Do you have suggestions? Have you been where I am now? Talk to me!

Let’s Get Political

Before you start rolling your eyes and fleeing from my blog, let me just say a little something. This post isn’t to try to convince you to vote for who I’ll be voting for or to brainwash you. I’m not going to mention any candidates or even argue for or against any beliefs. Hear me out.

By now we all know what this blog is about: living a healthier, happier, more independent life. In my life in general I do my best to be a good person.  I do things with the express intention to not harm you or me or anyone. So when the topic of climate change comes up I kind of lose it. I honestly don’t think it’s a topic most people can speak on because, quite frankly, most people aren’t scientists. Most scientists are not studying the climate or its possible changes. So why don’t we all the butt out and think for a second.

Here are a few things I consider when thinking about climate change:

  1. We are all in the same Earth boat.
  2. We are using natural resources faster than the Earth can create them.
  3. There is no con to living a cleaner life.
  4. There is no con to having a cleaner planet.
  5. Leaving a better Earth behind for posterity is a good thing.


That being said, I’m not sure where the argument is. I don’t see why politicians are squabbling about climate change. Whether or not you think it is real doesn’t matter, there is no reason to perpetuate unhealthy practices. A healthy planet and population should be prioritized before the money you can make keeping it dirty. If, hypothetically, our emissions are not harming the environment and causing global warming, they are still absolutely terrible for us. They are the most literal form of carcinogens. It’s pollution and it is hurting you and me. So forget the politics, improve our world so we can be healthy.

Lemme Upgrade You Part 1


Look at that raspberry beaut! I recently acquired two of these Lifefactory water bottles for beverage pleasure. Why? Well first, it’s made of glass (no BPA, no chemicals of any kind leeching into my water all day). Second, check out that silicone sleeve. Great for grippin and sippin and will prevent breakage partially. Plus they are adorbs. I also got the turquoise.

So far, I have really enjoyed them. The wide mouth makes it easy to add ice and the cap is comfortable to use for carrying. The variety of colors means anyone can find one they like. Also, maybe someone who has a hard time gripping bottles would find this handy. And guess what! Lifefactory makes little baby bottles too, that you can convert to sippys with a change of cap (I think).

All in all, very versatile. Definitely an upgrade.

Current Events

Yesterday I had my yearly physical and 2 things are really getting me thinking.

First, I was vaccinated. I haven’t had a tetanus shot in I can’t remember how long so they gave me one. I’ve heard many different viewpoints on the topic of vaccines. They are good for society, they are giving our kids autism, they aren’t tested enough, etc. Obviously I’m mot dead set against them. I don’t think they are giving our children autism either. I do, however, think they need to be rigorously tested. The last thing that should happen when you get vaccinated is actually getting the disease you were avoiding. Also, (and this may just be me being crotchety before my time) I don’t think we need a chicken pox vaccine. I had chicken pox and I turned out fine. Everyone I know has had chicken pox and is just fine. We have immune systems for a reason and they can handle some things. If I got whooping cough it would suck, but I would probably survive. The only reason I got the vaccine is because I don’t want to pass that on to my family. Specifically, the babies or elderly relatives who couldn’t handle getting it. There are people out there with compromised immune systems who can’t receive vaccines. We (the vaccinated) provide a buffer for them. That is why I get vaccines.

Second, my doctor told me to lose 20 lbs. I am about 100 lbs overweight so this wasn’t news. What surprised me is she said 20 lbs and didn’t specify a deadline. Not 100 lbs? Not 20 lbs by Christmas? I know a few people who are told by their doctors to lose weight and they are always saying how harshly they receive the news. My doctor was matter-of-fact, but not harsh. I am (and have been) taking steps to lead a healthier life, some of which I outlined in a previous post. I’ve lost 20 lbs in the last year. I’m pretty proud of that, but obviously there is more to go.

It’s all just a part of the journey.